Loving you right NOW
Happy Wednesday friends! How this day treatin ya?
I have the windows open, the sun is shining again, and it's a cool 63 degrees. Yep, that just about describes my favorite weather.
Now, I'm going to apologize to you guys. I realize that I talk about the weather ALOT! Alot, alot. And I comment on fall ALOT. Nearly everyday. But you're just gonna have to deal! Because I love it! I love the weather, I love everything about fall and I can't help it! Maybe one day you'll feel the same way as me. 
Now I can move on.
Loving you right NOW
I'm often asked about when things started to change for me. How did I start to lose weight. How did I finally let go of dieting. How did I stop bingeing.
Well friends, I could say a lot about each of those things. And you know I have and I will continue to do so. But today I want to talk about one distinct thing. This distinct thing was an integral part of my change. It was one of the most important steps I took towards losing weight, ditching the diets and making fitness a FUN part of my life.
I decided to love, accept and embrace myself exactly how I was.
Let me say that again: before I truly started to lose weight, before I could truly learn about intuitive eating I had to accept myself right then and there, exactly how I was. No better, no worse. Not lighter, not fitter, not healthier. I had to love everything about me right then.
Only at that point was I able to move forward. Because you see, change really comes from within. Change starts within YOU. And until you are your biggest fan, the one who will love and support YOU no matter what, things won't happen the way you want them to.
And if that's hard to do, start faking it! Tell yourself that you deserve kindness. Tell yourself that you deserve to love everything about you. The craziness, the quirks, the bizarre and all. And slowly you will start to believe it and then you will start to live it!
Let me tell you a story.
I was fed up with diets, dieting, and the process of dieting about 8 years ago. I wanted to change. I wanted to be different so most nights I would fall asleep promising myself that I would change. Promising myself that tomorrow I would just eat like a normal gal would. Eat when hungry, stop when full. Repeat.
The next morning I was getting ready for work and it was time to pick out my outfit. At this point I was probably about 30 or so pounds heavier than I am right now so this was not my favorite moment of the day. After 2 minutes of surveying my options, the negative, belittling and powerless thoughts were already streaming through my mind:
"Gosh I hate my body. I hate feeling this way. I used to look so much better. I used to be able to wear anything I wanted."
"Great, I'm never going to get back there unless I lose weight. I have to lose weight. I have to lose weight now and fast. What can I do?"
"Ok, we're going to start that cabbage soup diet again. I quit too early last time so I obviously didn't give it a chance. After work I'll get the ingredients and be prepared for tomorrow. I'll start tomorrow."
"Gosh I hate the way I feel. But tomorrow I'll change everything. Until I lose weight I just won't feel good."
And so began the cycle over and over again.
Everyday was about finding how much I didn't like myself. With that mindset, NOTHING changed. Without self acceptance my only motivation was to be someone different. Therefore I remained caught in that cycle.
But in the summer of 2008 I changed that with one simple step: everyday I decided that I loved myself, everything about me RIGHT THEN AND THERE.
And that is still how I begin everyday. Because I deserve it. Because you deserve it. Because that is how we grow and change.
Till next time!
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